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The day that changed my life.

So, this is pretty much the main reason why I seemed to have fallen off the face of the earth in the last half of 2010.

I can’t believe it has taken me 8 months to finally have the courage to post this. I realize this post is not necessarily photography-related, but in a sense it is, as it is the documentation of my life. My turn so to speak – to share, remember, and honor this time in my life and my family’s through photos…

The short story: Miles Vaughan Schulze was born at 28 weeks 5 days gestation, at 2 lbs 3 oz. He was born prematurely as a result of sudden and severe pregnancy-induced hypertension, or preeclampsia (my blood pressure shot up to 211 systolic at its peak – and now I basically know what it feels like to have a heart attack.) Less than 48 hours after arriving at the hospital to get my symptoms checked out, Miles was born via emergency c-section. All this without having the opportunity to experience any part of labor, let alone any of my entire third trimester. He was actually born on the day we were supposed to start our birthing class! My doctors told me that at delivery the placenta basically disintegrated and thus  baby was growth-restricted and wasn’t getting oxygen and nutrients he needed to survive inside the womb.

The first time I laid eyes on him and touched his tiny feet was actually the day after he was born. I was never so determined to get out of that bed and roll myself out to the NICU to see him. And even then, I was only allowed to be by his bedside for about 30 minutes because I was still so unstable. David was trying to prep me on the way. He kept saying how beautiful and awesome he was and how well he was doing. I could hear in his voice how proud and excited he was. His positivity was contagious, and I need that.  My heart was pounding harder than it ever had before as I opened the isolette doors and reached in. I could hardly see through the tears and all the wraps and bililights and ventilator and wires and tubes that surrounded him. He was under all of that somewhere, my tiny tiny beautiful son. And that was how we met.:)

After magnesium sulfate drips, IVs, blood draws, 6 different medications, multiple ultrasounds and EKGs, and a less than comfortable blood transfusion, they discharged me from the hospital 9 days later, unable to take Miles home with me. Little did I know, he would spend another 68 days in the NICU. Going home every night and leaving him there in the hospital for months was the hardest thing I have ever done.

Here are pictures of our first couple days together (most of them taken by David!). The most scary, amazing, surreal days of my life. And in the end, here is this beautiful little soul who fought every step of the way and endured  so much so far in his young life. I love you little Miles. Thank you for teaching me what it means to be strong. You are my hero. All 2 lbs 3 oz of you! I thank God for you, and I thank David, my family, and friends for being present and supportive every step of the way.

{As a photographer, I knew I wanted my birth experience documented, but I was hesitant because it was a huge investment for us. We had the wonderful Pinkle Toes document Miles’s journey, and I’m so glad she did. Get a box of tissues and head over to her blog, and see Miles’s story from birth through homecoming through her eyes.}

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Crystal - These pictures are precious and painful at the same time. I’m so glad we can fast forward to today and know that he is healthy and happy! You all are some serious troopers!

Hugs,
Crystal

Jenny Remington - The day that changed your life is a day that changed all of ours. Miles is a gift to this world. He’s a beautiful, strong, little fighter. I am thankful that my boys will have the opportunity to grow up with him as a friend, and I’m thankful that you have been my friend for more than 15 years!

As always, your photos bring such powerful emotions. Thank you for sharing them.

Love to you,
Jenny

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